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Sorry about the irregular posting!

March 18th, 2015

Or entirely lack there of.  I’m seriously sorry for my lack of posts in my How-Tos (and also missing my designer of the month).  I’ve been crazy busy working both my part time jobs and trying to prepare for KitsuneKon, which officially starts in 2 days.  I get to start setting up tomorrow night, as I am a vendor <3.  While I’m super excited for the convention, I have also been stressing out big time.

I hope to resume posts next week, starting with a review of KitsuneKon.  I wont say when (only because I’m never good about keeping dates it seems), but it -will- happen!

In the mean time, feel free to follow me at  and you’ll be able to see what’s been up in between posts :).

Hope to see lots of fun people this weekend!


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Posted by on March 18, 2015 in Uncategorized


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What I wish I could have done different…

February 12th, 2015

There are many times, when I have the opportunity to stare off into space – or usually when I’m trying to sleep at night – that I wish I would have chose to do things differently.  I realize, the choices I made are what make me today, but you know, perhaps this list may help someone else if they’re at that point in their life.  To organize some things, I’ll do this in a list format with explanations.


  • Never take things for granted.  Overstated? Yes, but totally true.  Take the time to cherish a family member, whether you love them a lot or not.  In many cases, especially if it’s extended family, you don’t know their circumstances (unless you’re like…super tight and share EVERYTHING).  You never know when they may suddenly leave this world and you never get the chance to tell them one last time that you love them.  Example: my uncle died last May due to a freak accident of a tree taking him out.  He was an experienced logger with many many many years under his belt, yet still couldn’t avoid this.  Then the week after, my grandmother passed away in her sleep (same side of the family).
  • Researched more opportunities for AP and/or college credit classes in high school.  To be honest, there weren’t really as many as I could have hoped at my school for what I initially wanted to go for.  The only AP course I wanted was AP Art History and it got canceled.
  • Be a bit less frivolous with how I spent my money.  Should have created some sort of college savings fund (and not just a CD that wasn’t earning me any money) and pour more money into that.  Luckily, we scraped and worked hard to pay off the ridiculous amount of tuition that was Mount Mary but I still have a lot of debt to repay.  Also, I’m still pretty damn frugal and I’m paying my loans off lightning speed.  (I will say I’m pretty fricken proud of myself right now for that one).
  • Not donate 19 inches of hair to locks of love in August of 2007.  Worst. Idea. EVER.  8 years later and I’m STILL trying to grow that hair back.  Come back fast hair growing of my youth T_T.
  • Have a more active lifestyle, outside of childhood.  I became pretty sedentary after grade school – read more books and played more video games.  I didn’t explore much anymore and I had horrible eating choices.  Ugh.  So bad.

I know there’s more buuuttt….Kind of don’t want to dwell on any of the other ones.  These are the major ones.

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Posted by on February 12, 2015 in Uncategorized


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Almost Level 24

(LoZ Item Get never gets old)

Tomorrow is my birthday, and in many ways, this year is pretty “Meh” celebration wise (which I’m okay with).  I have to work both jobs, and I have to work early Monday so that means no party-hardying for me (that’s okay…I’ll make it up to myself next year for my 25th since it’ll be my golden ;D).

goals for 2015

Earlier this month I did goals for myself as a business.  In lieu of my b-day, I’m going to write down 24 goals for myself personally for the year.

  1. Time management.  Seriously, I have a ton of issues with this. D:  I’m hoping to fix that this year.
  2. Work + Life balance.  Will play into time management.  Right now I technically work 4 jobs (Vandervest, JoAnns, my parents, and myself).  I literally have no structure week to week and my system is completely screwed up.  I’m hoping by at least June I have stuff figured out.  I need routine.
  3. Find an exercise regime that works for me.  I recently discovered hooping so…I hope that sticks (I have to rest another day or two from it though.  They really aren’t kidding when they say you get bruises D: ).  I can’t walk a gajillion miles on end at the mall (or even around town) like my brother does…unless I go with him.  It is just not satisfying to me and becomes a reeeeaaal big hassle (not to mention back to #2 where I have like…no routine)
  4. Make healthier food choices.  Even though it’ll be a bit more expensive in some ways….I really gotta crack down on this.  This includes remembering to take my supplements regularly (which I don’t right now).
  5. Finish Sarah’s Death Jester Cosplay.  Hoping time management can help with this one because I still have a shit-ton to do.  T__T Augh (stressing already)
  6. Find a different outlet for stress other than crying.  I get stressed out.  I cry.  I get really frustrated.  I cry.  I need to find a more creative/productive outlet.
  7. Stay on track for paying off my loans.  Want these babies paid off.  A lot.
  8. Have at least 1 photoshoot for my business.
  9. Create a collection for said photoshoot.  Hopefully by Fall.
  10. As always, lose weight/or rather lose fat and gain muscle.  With a lot of stress since the end of 2013, (being much amplified this past fall), I gained a bunch of weight.  Hoping goals 3 and 4 will help with this.
  11. Learn to say no.  I’m better than I was, but I could still use some help.
  12. Keep up this blog.  I have a blog content plan planned through February (fully) and partially through the end of the year.  (Constants being the first of the month is a business update post, the 15th is an influential designer, and the end of the month will be a round-up of articles on Textiles, Fashion, and Fashion shows or other fun articles I come across outside those categories).
  13. Organize.  If you saw my room, you’d understand the need for this.
  14. Create a website.  May have to hire a friend to do the layout and such for me because I’m terrible with code. T_T  I can do fun photoshop/illustrator stuff but can’t make it into a webpage D:
  15. Help mom get our sewing/crafting room up and running.  It’ll make both of our lives easier once we have that.
  16. Gain better self confidence.  I can be quite good at faking it, but I have absolute terrible self-esteem.  This is a never-ending process at the moment.  Hopefully one day I can take this off my list.
  17. Start thinking about long-term life planning.  Don’t have to plan anything now, but I need to at least start getting it in my head that one of these days I wont be living with my parents and I’ll need to learn how to do stuff.
  18. Continue making connections, no matter how big or small.  Now that I have a different setting of a job at the dealership, I’ll get to meet all kinds of new people and experiences.  I’m actually very excited for this.
  19. Don’t be afraid to take some risks.  Right now I’m really conservative when it comes to money and taking risks.  I fear that if I stay this way, I wont be able to grow my business.  What’s holding me back, though, is my crippling debt from college and that is constantly in the back of my mind.
  20. Work on my art skills.  Hopefully, starting in February (when things have calmed down a bit), I will try to find time, even if it’s only 5 minutes a day, to try and sketch.  Anything and everything.
  21. Use up some of the fabric downstairs and try to lessen the amount of impulse buying.  Mom keeps yelling at me for bringing more home.  I can’t help it ;__; (I’ve at least gotten smart enough to start labeling the fabric with what my intended use for it so when I finally get to it, I remember why I bought it)
  22. Make an epic pattern/design for fabric.  Idk what that will be yet, but I want something that I designed and then make it into something.
  23. Delve into papermaking and dying fabric.  They look really awesome, and very much potential black holes
  24. Make it to 25.  Only have about 366 days to go.

Okay.  I’m done pestering you with weird goals.  I’ll hopefully have part III of Making a Collection done this next week.

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Posted by on January 24, 2015 in Uncategorized


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Postpone on Part III of Collection How-To

Hello my lovely readers!  For those of you waiting anxiously for Part III: Croquis and Sketches, unfortunately, I have to move it to next week as….I know I will definitely not finish it for this week haha.  I haven’t had a chance to create my own sketches that I’ll be using as examples.  As part of a New Year’s Resolution, I thought I would try to have more time management, but right now it’s still pretty difficult for me to manage.  It’s really tough to juggle two part time jobs and try to develop Crimson Star Emporium at the same time.  Just not enough hours in a week! T_T

In the mean time, I will have a few shorter posts out this week in order to compensate for that. ❤

Also, if you are looking for some fun Wisconsin conventions to check into this year, definitely look at KitsuneKon and NoBrandCon.  They’re smaller conventions, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t any fun!  I’ll be vending at both of them too~  A little info about both of them:

KitsuneKon: (

  • March 20-22, 2015
  • Held at the KI Convention Center in Green Bay, WI
  • $30 Pre Reg until 2/28/15, or $40 at the door
  • Last year’s attendance was around 2200 (I think.  I know we maxed out the hotel, and unfortunately we had to turn some people away.  Luckily we have a muuuuuch higher cap at the KI Convention Center, hence the move from Appleton).

NoBrandCon: (

  • April 24-26
  • Held at The Plaza Hotel and Suites in Eau Claire, WI
  • $30 Pre Reg until 3/24/15, or $35 at the door
  • I’m not entirely sure what last year’s attendance was.  I think it was also around 2k.

Hope to see you guys there 🙂

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Posted by on January 20, 2015 in Uncategorized


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It’s been awhile

Just a heads up to everyone!  I will be completely revamping this blog and making sure I keep up with it.  Look for the first official post Sunday!  I have a plan this time around for what kinds of posts I want to have (with of course wiggle room for exciting things that come up!)

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Posted by on January 2, 2015 in Uncategorized


Good, and Bad, News and a whole bunch of other stuff

I Am Not Here

Don’t stand by my grave and weep,
For I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint of snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn’s rain.
When you awaken in the morning, hush.
For I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circle flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand by my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die.

– Hopi Grief Song/Prayer

(a good choral version for this song is here: and you should go listen to it)

I’ll start with since my last post and work my way to present.  The end of April was pretty crazy with Jury and other prep work for the show.  Surprisingly, I got pretty good marks from Jury, but not good enough to get awards,  Oh well, I wasn’t making my collection in full hopes of getting any awards, I was making them for my friends in accordance with our Steampunk-inspired story we have.

Fashion show, for the most part, was a success.  I think all the shows were sold out, or nearly sold out and there weren’t too many mishaps.  Second and Third show there were one or two garments that didn’t make it out but….to be honest that wasn’t our fault at all, although it does suck.

After the show, it was crazy to get my room clean.  My parents and my brother and sister-in-law helped me clean out the majority of my room the Sunday afterward (May 11th).  Finals went pretty smoothly and I gtfo of my dorm and out of Milwaukee to get home because ACEN was coming really soon.

ACEN was fantastic.  Didn’t buy a lot compared to other years because I needed to try and save my money for my Italy trip (which, holy crap, I leave in 2 days).  Saturday of ACEN was a huge success because my friend Brittany and I dressed up as Silent Hill nurses and we couldn’t walk very far without pictures being taken haha.  Feet hurt like hell, though.  I need to get new shoes for that cosplay.

Monday afterward was okay.  Started new position at work that is primarily focused on guest service.  It’s pretty interesting and most of the times uneventful.

Tuesday, May 20th we received bad news that my Uncle on my dad’s side passed away.  He was a logger and unfortunately he was struck down by a tree.  Week kind of passed by in a blur and then Sunday, May 25th, we received more bad news that my Grandmother (same side), also passed away.  Needless to say, it was a bad two weeks.  Uncle’s funeral was on Wednesday, Grandmother had a wake Friday and the funeral Saturday.  Just kind of….surreal…

It’s been rough, but I’ve had to push through because my trip is coming soon.  I’ve luckily had the support of friends and family, and of course my ever-comforting boyfriend.  For the most part, I think I’ve got everything in order to finish packing, but I still have tomorrow if all else fails.  Plane leaves Saturday and I’ll be in Florence come Sunday.

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Posted by on June 5, 2014 in Uncategorized


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Not dead….yet

“Remember that stress doesn’t come from what’s going on in your life. It comes from your thoughts about what’s going on in your life.

-Andrew Bernstein
I haven’t written in a really long time and that’s because the weeks have been flying by so quickly.  My gosh.  Sorry, but nothing too substantial for this post today because I am stressed out and brain is completely muddled.  I apologize if some of this doesn’t make sense later on.
Basically, my entire collection is done, aside from some minor pressing I’ll probably do either tomorrow night, or Monday morning if I get to it.  Attaching the vent to the lining in my boyfriend’s trench coat was horrendous because I didn’t pattern the lining correctly to begin with, so my teacher had to help me ad-lib it (wish she would have just made sure I patterned it right to begin with waaaaaay back when in September/October when I was making it.  Gah.  Oh well, it can’t be helped – I’ll just have to remember for next time).  Either way, it got finished.
Just trying to find another set of goggles because I don’t necessarily like my second pair, but they’ll do for jury if I have to.  Also trying to find a few other last minute details to help sell the collection as a whole.  I already know I most likely wont get any of the awards because my collection is Steampunk and not necessarily marketable in, oh say….Kohls, Bon-Ton, JCP, etc.  But whatever.  These outfits were going to get made regardless, so I felt it was better to make them while I still had the aid of my teacher to do so haha.  I’m already going to have to remake a few things, though, when I have time because I absolutely hate the way it pulls funny or doesn’t necessarily look right.  Another time, when I’m not so stressed.
It’s hit me, yet not so much, the fact I’m almost about to finish the chapter that is Mount Mary.  I have about 2 full weeks worth of classes and about another 2~3 days for finals, and then I’m done.  No more.  On with my life.  It’s scary, sad, exciting, and a bunch of other emotions all at once.  I think once I have to clean out my bin and take apart of my dress form, it’ll hit me.  I’m definitely going to cry – no doubt about that.  I’m a sap D:
Anywho.  I need sleep.  I’ll post some pictures later…hopefully.  I may do another post toward the end of the week, otherwise it probably wont be until the middle of May.  It’s crunch time and a LOT will happen between now and May 19th.
May 6th: 2 papers and a portfolio due
May 9th: Fashion Show at the Harley-Davidson Museum
May 12-14: Finals
May 16-18: Anime Central in Rosemont, IL. 
And all the other in-between crap to get some of this stuff done.  Ahhaskdjfaksjdfklsjfdkljsfd
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Posted by on April 26, 2014 in Uncategorized


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